This has been an emotionally turbulent week. I thought it was related to our weekend of freedom, but it finally occurred to me that my child has changed this week, very suddenly. She went from being inseparable to pushing away from me at every turn. Very healthy, very normal, very her - the only thing missing is that I was very not ready. My motherhood is the rug that gets ripped out from underneath me whenever I finally get comfortable.. so I am in the process of readjusting.